clarification

didn't give much thought to posting song lyrics and what could be taken away from them so a "clarification" is due, i suppose. and yes this post replaced the original one titled "faking"

the song by dashboard confessional i posted late last night has a lot of meaning to me, so i guess i should explain or should have explained along with the post.

title: the places you have come to fear the most. there is one place that i fear the most, i've been living it for at least the last 2 months, probably more but didn't realize i was doing so.
1st verse: you can go back and look... i have been buried deep inside myself, trying to cover up all of my feelings and emotions from so many, trying to smile, and yes i have been barely scraping by. had it not been for good friends and family helping me get through i don't know where i'd be.
chorus: i'm not trying to fake what emotions or feelings that i have i simply just can't act on them, so i try to keep them hidden. i'm also not trying to fake the changes i have made...they are life changes...i'm not trying to please everyone, just a handful and that handful has seen where i'm at....yes i'm in a place that i can't seem to leave
2nd verse: i am hiding from the public eye, or am i, or am i just not viewed by the public i want to be viewed by, i'm not seen in the social situations i want and strive to be seen in?? yes i'm lonley, and yes i am barely scraping by.....