lets hope this is for the best

well one of my worst fears happened yesterday....that fear of having no control on an outcome that i feel so strongly about........sucks, but on cb's advice i'm keeping focused on the positive and going to do my dangdest to use all of my time to studying....have to keep focused, have to get this exam done and secure a job that will make me happy for the long haul....keep those priorities in check.....the house and yard will wait, friends will understand, my bicycle will still be there.....

priority list:
study for and take exam
survive
find rewarding position, hopefully in ut, but have to wait and see on that one
finish yard
finish odds and ends in house

i know there are some things i missed and other's i intentionally left out...just to say there are other things that are grand priorities for me as well, but ones that may be out of my hands for the time being.

on with yesterday:
helped with a fence...all of the wire mesh went up after we hung the 2x4's, it looks good....i'm a bit of a perfectionist so i would have liked it to look better but, it's up and it's functional.  i built the gate and installed, wish i would have had a hand with that task...one of the 4x4's was warped so that made hanging it a little tricky, had to shim the bottom hinge to get the gate level.  tested the entire system with the dogs, there was the immediate run to the wire fence, with a abrupt halt once it was realized that wasn't open space any longer.  so nice to see them play and use the yard they have...hope all that hard work puts a stop to their craziness and takes stress off their owner.   enjoyed some home made pizza after that, then home to meet fres.. did a quick tune on his bike, then chatted a bit..  also chatted on the phone with cb....  fres's b-day is coming up and he's throwing his on shin-dig....a group of us pitched in and are getting him a nice grill since he always hosts events...i know he likes to and he's got a great space to do so but....some people just don't give a rats behind and they take advantage...jerks...hopefully those jerks see what friends do for friends and learn from it..anyway enough with that digression....   after fres took off, showered, found a movie, woke up on the couch 2am, turned the movie off and right back to sleep...needed that after the previous nights lack of.

today: well it's not going to be that easy, but focus on the positive........do what i was asked, study, prep for market, fix sprinkler, mow lawn....hang with dogger, bbq later??  who knows....  STUDY!!!!!!  time to get back to it...